Friday, September 28, 2007

A Stormy Period

stormy skies

"It's confirmed." And with those two words from my doctor, my usually uneventful life became a roller-coaster of emotions for my family and I.

Several weeks ago, I discovered a lump in my breast and after going through the standard procedure of a mammogram, an ultra-sound scan, and finally a core-section biopsy, my oncologist spoke the two dreaded words that I was praying would not come true. But yes, the biopsy had confirmed that the lump in my breast was cancerous.

There were no tears in the consulting room that day - for whatever tears I could afford on myself had already been wept and spent in the earlier days since I discovered the lump - tears of anxiety, apprehension, frustration and fear. But now that I knew what it was, I had to get down to the business of removing this interfering blot in my health and life.

And with that firmly held in mind, the last two and a half weeks have been a whirlwind of activities with first the surgery to remove the tumour, and then the start of my first course of chemotherapy. It's been tiring, to say the least, but the support of hubby, family, friends and my doctors, and even strangers from time to time, have filled the past weeks with warmth and lots of humour (.... laughter is after all the best medicine!). And never forgetting to praise the Lord who has kept me in the palm of His hands, answering our prayers and guiding us along this difficult path.

You may think from the above that I sound pretty strong and positive about this 'big C' episode - and I am - but it's definitely not from my puny internal resources - it comes all from the 'big Lord' Himself. Several months ago, my hubby and I had decided that we should up our ante in our spiritual life, and when the 'big C' came knocking on my door, I was hard put wondering if the Lord had sent this on as a test of our faith. I shared this with my hubby's cousin, who is a pastor, and his take was that the Lord had wonderfully prepared the foundation for us so that when we go through this very trying period, we can and will be able to dip into that foundation of faith, grace and mercy and find solace and comfort! Now that is one comforting take, which I hold dearly in my heart :-)

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
- Proverbs 3: 5-6

And just like the above picture I've taken of the scene from my living room, it may seem that there are dark and stormy skies hanging overhead now, but the bright and warm lights shine like a beacon leading the way to solace and comfort.

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Thursday, September 20, 2007

After the Rain

How fast time passes... in the blinking of an eye, an entire year has gone by since my last update!

The usual claims and commitments at work, a dearth of inspiration... and I figured that a breather from blogging and trying to make sense of my thoughts would be welcomed indeed.

And now you may be wondering my reason for coming out of this long silent hiatus...

A wholely unexpected and unsettling set of events has occured recently in my life, turning it upside down and yet with the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, I'm walking through this period ever grateful of His presence and hand-holding protection, and the support of my dearest hubby, parents, family members and close friends.

I am still undecided whether to go into the details of those events in this blog, but for my close family and friends who may be following this blog, I truly wish to take this opportunity to THANK all of you for your constant prayers and to tell you to rejoice in the enduring mercy of the Lord!

after the rain

I am sharing this picture I took a couple of months back of a little dewdrop collecting after a short rainfall at the tip of the leave, full of promise of the goodness to fall on this green earth.

After this latest rainfall in my life, I look forward positively to the little dewdrops collecting day by day through the grace of the Lord Almighty!

Though new updates may be infrequent, I will try my best to share the many little and big ways in which He has touched, comforted and even made me laugh day by day through the people he has placed in my life now... till the next post :-))