Friday, September 28, 2007

A Stormy Period

stormy skies

"It's confirmed." And with those two words from my doctor, my usually uneventful life became a roller-coaster of emotions for my family and I.

Several weeks ago, I discovered a lump in my breast and after going through the standard procedure of a mammogram, an ultra-sound scan, and finally a core-section biopsy, my oncologist spoke the two dreaded words that I was praying would not come true. But yes, the biopsy had confirmed that the lump in my breast was cancerous.

There were no tears in the consulting room that day - for whatever tears I could afford on myself had already been wept and spent in the earlier days since I discovered the lump - tears of anxiety, apprehension, frustration and fear. But now that I knew what it was, I had to get down to the business of removing this interfering blot in my health and life.

And with that firmly held in mind, the last two and a half weeks have been a whirlwind of activities with first the surgery to remove the tumour, and then the start of my first course of chemotherapy. It's been tiring, to say the least, but the support of hubby, family, friends and my doctors, and even strangers from time to time, have filled the past weeks with warmth and lots of humour (.... laughter is after all the best medicine!). And never forgetting to praise the Lord who has kept me in the palm of His hands, answering our prayers and guiding us along this difficult path.

You may think from the above that I sound pretty strong and positive about this 'big C' episode - and I am - but it's definitely not from my puny internal resources - it comes all from the 'big Lord' Himself. Several months ago, my hubby and I had decided that we should up our ante in our spiritual life, and when the 'big C' came knocking on my door, I was hard put wondering if the Lord had sent this on as a test of our faith. I shared this with my hubby's cousin, who is a pastor, and his take was that the Lord had wonderfully prepared the foundation for us so that when we go through this very trying period, we can and will be able to dip into that foundation of faith, grace and mercy and find solace and comfort! Now that is one comforting take, which I hold dearly in my heart :-)

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
- Proverbs 3: 5-6

And just like the above picture I've taken of the scene from my living room, it may seem that there are dark and stormy skies hanging overhead now, but the bright and warm lights shine like a beacon leading the way to solace and comfort.

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Blogger Woof! said...

Hi... I'm not religious, but I wish that everything will turn out fine really soon... take care!

9/29/2007 01:37:00 PM  
Blogger eatzycath said...

@woof! - thanks for well wishes - I'm positive things will turn out well :-))

9/29/2007 08:57:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

May the Lord grant you strength and peace. God Bless!

9/29/2007 09:32:00 PM  
Blogger Mulhollands Falls said...

Hi eatzycath, i am 26 years old and is going to a 2nd ultrasound check on a suspected 5mm lump or air bubble.

I wished you good health and also hope for the best for tmr.

I chanced upon this website - where people share their experiences or questions & answers in the form of fourm. Not sure if you can benefit from it. take care, you take real nice pictures too.

Just blogged about my dogs, hope my dogs' pics bring smile to you.


10/01/2007 01:10:00 AM  
Blogger eatzycath said...

@anonymous - thank u :-)

@joeyx - I sincerely hope all is well with you and that your lump is only a cyst and nothing more. Thank you for the lead to the website :-)
By the way, I would love to visit your blog but can't seem to find the blog address on your blogger profile. Would you mind giving us your blogname?

10/02/2007 04:30:00 AM  
Blogger Rosa's Yummy Yums said...

I'm very sorry to hear that... I wish you all the best! May you find the courage and strength to fight against your tumor.

In thoughts with you...



10/03/2007 08:50:00 PM  
Anonymous mama bok said...

Get well soon..!

10/08/2007 12:23:00 AM  
Blogger eatzycath said...

@rosa - thank you for your kind words.. :-)

@mama bok - I will definitely try my best.. and with the Lord's support and protection, I will look to Him for strength :-)

10/09/2007 11:27:00 PM  
Blogger mia said...

Hello! Glad to see you back in action. I have faith in God and His mighty healing powers. Take care and continue to pray.

10/10/2007 12:39:00 AM  
Blogger eatzycath said...

@mia - thank u for the lovely encouragement... and yes, I have faith in HIM as well :-))

10/11/2007 10:20:00 PM  

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